Thursday, June 22, 2006

Mercy and Forgiveness

Yesterday after talking with our therapist, I got the impression from her that she thought either of us forgiving you was maybe premature. Maybe from an emotional standpoint it is, I don't know. But when God gives us a command, is there such a thing as obeying Him too quickly? Can we really do what God asks too much? This is our first snag dealing with a non-Catholic therapist. If there are many others, we may have to go somewhere else.

I think, My Love, that you have not truly accepted God's mercy. You don't feel worthy of it, but are any of us? Remember that God watched his son be brutally tortured and murdered and still forgave His killers. Can you imagine that happening to our little baby? God forgave the absolute worst crime. Is what you did on the same level as that? No. If God could forgive the murder of His child, then He can forgive you too.

You may not be able to forgive yourself for a while, but try to believe truly that God has shown His mercy to you. Accept that. Take comfort in that. In your prayers, thank Him for that. Remember that none of us are worthy of His forgiveness, but God has never acted soley on our own merit.

I love you.

2 comments:

Mea Culpa said...

I think perhaps you are right. Perhaps I haven't accepted his mercy. I feel like I must punish myself, first.

wanting to heal said...

That's what Purgatory's for.