A task

I don't know why, but I have felt compelled to spiritually reach out to the other woman. I have not only felt a need to pray for her, but I want to. I want to help her. I want to be her friend from a distance, that she never knows she has. I realize that if I do not pray for her, she might never have anyone else to. Because of this ugly ugly business, both of our futures have been somehow changed by the other. I don't want to know her, but I want to help her because our lives somehow became so interwoven. Maybe if I pray for her, someday it will do some good.

I have also come to another realization, or maybe it's another another holy peace and step in my healing. I don't want to go see her. I don't want to try and meet her. I want, if it be God's will, for Him to orchestrate it completely, for both of our healing. I no longer want to make it happen. If it be God's will, I leave it to Him to plan it.

Dear Lord,
I trust in You. I have had moments of weakness and doubts, for which I am ashamed, but I said in Confession that I am resolved to do better. You can see the future much better than I. I trust in Your holy insight that You can make all things right. Please use this horrible circumstance to make both of us better, stronger, wiser women. Bless her. Bless me. Not because we, either of us are worthy, but because we are both Your daughters. She doesn't know it, but her heart wants Your love too.