Friday, September 22, 2006

Do you see and accept me as I really am?

Dearest Love,
this is the hardest question yet because I am constantly torn about what I feel and what I know. I believe that you know me better than anyone: my mom, my brothers, my friends. I believe that you are staying with me because you love me. It is very painful right now, and I don't know what would be as strong a reason as going through this pain other than love.

Sometimes, though, I have doubts, because you cheated on me. It's hard for me to accept that you love me and accept me for who I am if you chose someone else for a while. It's hard for me not to give into the feeling that you prefer someone else, that you have the knowledge of who I really am, and that having that knowledge, you can't accept me.

I guess on both sides I feel you SEE me as I really am, but sometimes I doubt that you accept me.....

Love Always,

Your Wife

2 comments:

Mea Culpa said...

I can certainly understand how you have doubts after what I have done to you. I don't know what to do except to keep telling you that I do love you. Like the card I gave you today said, you are my strength, and I can't do it without you. You are a wonderful person. I know that now more than I ever did before.

You are the most loving, giving, caring person I have ever met.

Mea Culpa said...

I accept you my love. I truly do. I am sorry for your pain, and I promise my fidelity to you going forward.