Thursday, September 28, 2006

If it's a blue dress, it has to be Prada

Beloved,
I wish I could answer those questions. I feel like we are both committed to each other, both very much in love, emotionally and spiritually close, yet we have no joy. Maybe we aren't praying enough, like you had said. Maybe we need to try the EMDR and jumpstart our minds into letting go. At this point, I'm willing to try just about anything.

I can't wait for the day when our intimacy doesn't bring any sadness, and when we go out on a date and don't talk or think about the affair. That to me will be real progress. Until then, we'll keep going to counseling and spiritual direction, keep talking, keep holding each other when we cry, and keep praying. Hard.

I love you.

8 comments:

Mea Culpa said...

Okay Love, we will keep doing what we are doing. And in your internet travels if you find something else that may help us, lets talk about it.
I hope that our trip to FL brings us some peace and good time together, but I also hope we are feeling better before then.

Mea Culpa said...

Prada? There are so many fashions out there... Prada is SOOO overdone...

wanting to heal said...

But the devil only wears Prada.

wanting to heal said...

We're in a bad place, but we'll get out of it. We always do.

Mea Culpa said...

what were her scarves? They weren't prada, they were something else in the book I thought.

Mea Culpa said...

We do always get out of it. Do you feel confident?

I am wondering if we should contact our counselor about the EMDR thing and maybe try to get a longer appointment scheduled for next time.

wanting to heal said...

Hermes.

That's probably a good idea. Just take care of it right away.

Mea Culpa said...

I wrote her.

I miss you.