This is my 101st blog entry. I have been recording our healing process for four months now. How far have we come?
I've gotten to a place where I don't believe my husband cares for the other woman anymore. We have survived the fear, reality, and finally release from the possibility of another child. We have paid her, so she shoudn't be able to hurt us anymore. We are both working equally hard to show the other than we care about our marriage and future. We are sleeping together again. Our therapist has cut back our sessions because she doesn't feel we need as many. We are emotionally, spiritually, and physically close.
What still needs work?
I still have doubts that my husband loves me. The pain when I imagine them together is still crippling. We both still cry a lot. I still feel like my life revolves around the affair and only find relief from the pain when I am busy.
I guess, all in all, we're not too bad, considering. We knew this would be hard, but I am in it for the long haul if my Love is. Hopefully, when I reach 201, the second paragraph will be very short.
Happy 101st entry, Baby. We've come a long way.
Thursday, September 28, 2006
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2 comments:
Thank you for focusing on the positive and for celebrating those accomplishments. I love you, and am looking forward to our future.
I admire all of the positives you were able to find. To move forward, we are going to have to find a way to forget about her and focus on us, and the positives that come from us.
We are growing so strong together spiritually... it is exciting because we can have faith that we will get even closer as time goes on, and we can have faith that things WILL be better.
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