Sunday, August 20, 2006

Rollercoaster

This has been a very eventful couple of days. The situation with the other woman finally exploded with her seeking legal counsel, and sending a letter to my husband about what a horrible human being he is for shirking his responsibilities and ignoring her and she doesn't deserve him (I can agree with the last part!). He wrote a letter back explaining that he never meant to avoid his responsibilities, but his responsibilities are to his wife and child first and foremost. He also Told her that she isn't innocent in this either because she knew he was married and had a child and still pursued a relationship with him.
I wrote her a letter too, which I will post as well. We decided to go ahead and send her the money for her bills. We'll never know for sure if it was his, but in case it was, it is part of his responsibility to pay.

I don't feel angry with her anymore. What she did was wrong and there is no excuse for that, but all she feels is pain and anger. Her past has shaped her into the bitter, heartless, selfish person she is now, but it is pain that has made her such. I wish I knew if she was sorry, but that is a wish I do not hope will ever be fulfilled in my lifetime. The fact that she told him she wants closure but can't have it makes me pity her, but for that alone. I have wanted closure and hope my letter gives that. I can understand her wanting it too.

In addition to those feelings, I feel fear over what her next actions might be. She is incredibly angry. I know I can't be paralyzed by "what ifs" but as the saying goes, "Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." I almost wish that she would write one last nasty letter to him so that we could know for sure that she had closure.

Heavenly Father,
please grant all three of us peace. We are trying to move on. We need to move on. Please heal our wounds and help us all to find happiness again. We ask that you bring someone into her life to bring her to You. I know that You love her too, and if we don't pray for her, there probably isn't anyone else going to do it either.

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