A slightly clarified prayer

I know I've posted a lot about my husband's lover lately. She is on my mind every day, all through the day. The only person I think about and pray more for is my husband.

I had a counseling session tonight by myself. My husband will be going alone next week. We spent an hour and a half talking about my preoccupation with her, and how stressful and difficult it is. I have been praying for weeks that she would make some gesture towards me, either hateful or remorseful, I don't really care. I just want two things: to clear up the mystery about what this stranger is like, and two, to just have her acknowledge my existence, either as her enemy or someone she feels bad for hurting.

Tonight, though, maybe a more precise prayer would be that I just know who she really is: that I can see the real woman.