Today is the fourth day of our novena to St. Rita, patroness of the impossible situation. In our novena, we promise to tell people how she granted our request and spread a devotion to her. I would gladly tell everyone we know what she did if she just answers our prayers for there not to be a baby with her.
Some days I feel weary in prayer. Not that I don't want to keep praying, but I must sound like a broken record always praying for the same thing. My desire for that intention hasn't lessened, but I wonder if always begging for the same thing is effective, or pleasing to God.
I keep telling Him all my reasons for not wanting another baby:
1. So my husband won't bear the cross of always knowing he has a child out there in the world that he knows nothing about.
2. So my right to be the sole bearer of my husband's children isn't taken from me
3. So we don't have to explain some day to our children that they have a half sibling....that such a pain be spared them.
4. So there isn't another illegitimate child being raised in the world, created without love, being raise by a single mother with other children.
5. So that child is not brought into a Godless home with a family without faith or principles, and the possibility of knowing and loving Him is very slim.
6. So we don't live in dread of the day when he comes looking for the father he never knew.
7. So I don't bear the pain of my womb being robbed and devalued.
8. So our parents don't wonder about the grandchild they won't know.
9. So our family structure, which God always wanted to be Mother, Father, children together, isn't compromised.
10. So a baby won't be born to a mother who wished he would die before birth and considered abortion. How sad for a baby to be carried by a woman who doesn't love him!
11. So we won't have any tie to such a horrible influence, and never need communication with her again.
12. So our attention and energy can be on fruitful and productive things, not always looking back on the worst possible event that could happen to a marriage.
These are not in order, and certainly don't encompass all the ramifications of another child. God knows my reasons. I hope that they are worthy enough for God to consider. I will try not to tell Him my reasons again. He sees them here now, and sees them in my heart.
Dear St. Rita, please look at these reasons and see that they are not purely selfish. Please mention them to God on our behalf. We know that God listens to you because of your dedication to Him on earth. We dedicate our life to Him, too, whether or not He grants our request. We promise to do His will, but that will be so hard if our attention is always divided by such an evil (no baby is an evil, but one created out of selfishness and adultery born into a broken home without Love or piety our faith teaches us is not pleasing to God). Ask him to have pity on His servants who are trying with all their might to live the way He wants. Please St. Rita. We beg you to pray for us.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
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2 comments:
I think you have hit most of the reasons. I also like your prayer.
And we dedicate our lives to him regardless of the outcome of this.
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