Stolen

This morning I am feeling so sad. I am feeling how unjust this whole situation is. I'm not thinking about the lost trust, the damage to our relationship, the wasted time, the money spent now on fixing it, or any of that.

I keep thinking of the story of King David in the Bible who had everything, but stole another man's wife. Samuel told him that he was like a wealthy man with a large flock who stole and killed a poor man's single lamb.

My husband is the only man I've been with. The only man I ever will be with. The other woman doesn't value sex as I do. She has no problem sleeping with men just because it feels right and didn't ever admit that being with a married man was a big deal. She can sleep with anyone who is willing, and not feel that there's a spiritual connection, or even be certain of a future with that person. Sex is sex. That is why I feel that she is even more responsible than my husband in this. She knowingly, willingly stole from me something that she didn't even value, and could have gotten anywhere. She planned my husband's infidelity, did all she could to accomplish it, while his sin was complacency. She'll probably have many partners in the future. Why did she have to pollute mine?????

I can't ever have my little lamb returned.....