Sunday, July 30, 2006

Doubts and Fears

Friday I went to the doctor because I thought there might be something wrong. They think that I'm losing the baby. Tomorrow, hopefully I will know for sure, but it doesn't seem too hopeful. I am so worried. I feel like God is testing us so much. I know that God never gives people more than they can handle, so He must think that we are superheroes.

What if we lose our tiny little daughter and the other woman still has her baby? Is there no end to the suffering that I must endure? We have been so happy thinking about our little flower. She has given us so much hope. Now I'm scared that I'm losing her, and I don't know why. I don't know why any of this is happening.

Dear Lord,
please take care of our tiny one. We pray that you will take our children before they lose their souls, so if in your mercy you want baby Therese to be with you now, we will be happy to know she's in heaven. Please give us closure in the other situation. We feel that you have answered our prayers, but we need closure to move on. Please don't give us the cross of that other child. Please God, please, no. Grant us peace.

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