long week

My husband has been a way for a few days, and boy has it been hard. I miss him so much. I feel so safe when he's with me, and very vulnerable when he's so far away.

She said she might be sending something in the mail. I go back and forth about what it means and what she might send. I hope she never does......I hope she does right away so we can know she has closure and leaves us alone. I go back and forth.

I told my husband that I was thinking a short separation might be good for us, but know I don't know. We are having a prodigal family member coming home so I know our attention will be focused there for a while. It's just all so much.

I feel tired.